21/11/2011

I remembered each time my friends asked me " What is your dream?"

I smiled and answered "To be a doctor, psychiatrist of course."

Is this what I really want?

Well, I dreamed to be one when I was younger, I don't know why but later for who am I now, whenever I thought of that I feel stress. So much stress that I doubt can I handle it if I was really one in the future?

Haha,

to be or not to be. It is a must for me....... :)

Some of you might think, why wouldn't you chase for your real dreams?

It is my life.

Reality.

It is sad, but sometimes you must accept the way the things are.

My mom had sacrifice so much for our family,

so it is my turn to do the same for her.

I've promised her......

Second time writting my blog in English

This is heartbreaking.......

Well, I think the most by far? not after the breakup BFF friendship between JG........

I have to write this post in English because I'm using my father's computer, which doesn't have any chinese program .......

Everyone thought I was born from a rich and happy family....... to be true, I'll give you a big NO.

My mom just cried just now. Her tears drown my heart. I don't know what to do.

Later, my grandfather came, she said just ignore him.

That sure does make me feel very bad,

everytime my grandfather knock the door asking "is there anyone home? calling my mom's name, my bro's and me......"

Sometimes it's really really really hard to pretend there are no people especially to those you loved, but I have to obey my mom.......

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I wish.....

things will get better.

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I wish I can end my exam earlier

so that I change my family's life.

hold my tears, I can do it. :')